SMILE

Im at a point in my life where a lot of things about relationships baffle me.
dont get me wrong.
Ive been out of the "market " for about two years. I gave my self enough time to heal and grow and develop and everyday I am greatful to God for developing me into the woman I have now become.
I went from the fat ignorant kid to the more self aware woman. Most importantly, I went from Hating to loving completely and that has been the biggest change for me

I met some... someones... a lot of someones...
In the past couple of months I have crushed on more guys than I can count, I have liked a lot more than I have liked in my entire life. I havent fallen in Love but I have been open, let my guard and defences down and Ive decided to just let things flow.

But there is this one... I cant wrap my head around it... Hes perfect in everyway except one. HEs a self acclaimed ASHEWO. I know it, everyone knows it but its weird. I know I cant have a future with him and I know that we will never work out and I know I should just carry my slippers and run ... but everytime I think of him, I Smile :) .. I smile sooo hard I think my cheeks are going to hurt and I dream. I dream about something that'll never exist.

I really dont understand how this whole thing works but its crazy... I admit, I get jealous when I see him with other girls or when I hear about other girls... Ive been honest with him. Told him I liked Him and He told me it would never work and I accept it.

I know he isnt the one... everything in me knows but he still makes me smile and jealous and angry. He brings out every single emotion. and then I look at him and pardon my language but I just want to say FUCK YOU!

Fuck you for making me feel this way, fuck you for being an asshole. fuck you for existing. fuck you for being in my circle and denying me the opportunity to toally cut you off so i can move on with my life. fuck you for being you. FUCK YOU!

We will never be. I need time for my subconcious to process it. the other day my friend said she wouldnt wish for him to be with her worst enemy talkless of her friend. and I laughed cos I knew I wouldnt wish him on any of my friends either. HE IS THE WORST.

I guess for now I'll keep smiling till my brain moves on... :)

My Birthday..

Its my birthday in exactly 40 mins...


The plan honestly was to continue studying for my upcoming exam but I'm having a hard time focusing.
So I've decided to .... whats the word... reminisce this last couple of years, especially last year...

Normally, I'm uber excited about my birthday but now, not so much... I guess I'm getting older.. you know reaching that age of accountablilty.

I just keep thinking about what has happened and what my next goal is and honestly my general outlook on life..

I am beyond NERVOUS for this upcoming stage in my life like it could actually be considered being excessively scared.
I don't know what to think, what to do... Im genuinely not prepared for this new year... mentally , physically, emotionally...
My life ... has been alot of tears and there's been alot of breakdowns

I'm not ready.

I want to re-do this last year but even if I did, I dont know exactly what I would change that would make everything right or perfect.

I'm very paranoid and ..... my emotions are just overheated these days... sometimes I think I'm pregnant... (I'm not ooh!)

All in alll... I am thankful...
I cannot count how many stages God has literally carried me... and I knew.
Even with all the nights I went to bed crying and woke up in tears (I didnt think that was possible till I experienced it ) , I just knew there was someone who was there... He was always watching and has been my ultimate rock...

I did not want to celebrate my birthday.

Not because I'm not thankful, but mostly because I just didn't feel like it.... This year had nothing to be excited or "jumpy" about...

Sigh..
I'm honestly tired of growing up... and I haven't even started....

If there is anything I want more this upcoming year than ever is really God's Favour and Mercy... I think that is all I could really ask for..

His Favour and Mercy.. Thats it.

In 10 mins, I am going to close this chapter and start a new one... This has been the hardest chapter of them all and I hope it stays that way for a really long time...

New Beginnings, New Blessings and by the Grace of God, New Joys....

Hi, My name is LadyT and I turned a year older on June 2nd 2013...

Midnight Inspirations: Kerry Washington

Last night, I spent at least 3 hours watching videos about this phenomenal women... I wanted to know who she was, and what she stood for.  I have grown to respect her.. From my 3 hrs. Here's some reasons why

1. She's a smarty. She has a phd and she finished her undergraduate studies with honours, on scholarship and created a new type of minor by the time she graduated( paved a path) 

2. She's a hard worker. She BALANCED Her life. Between school and the requirements for her scholarship 

3. I watched one of her acceptance speeches and it was actually a speech not one of those "omg! I didn't think I'd get this award"

4. She has a terrible laugh. Just like me 😊

5. She is a leader. Even though she seemed super humble  but when she was with the scandal cast you could tell that she was the team captain.  And the biggest thing is she wasn't the oldest on set but she was still the path setter. 

After watching a gazillion videos, I learnt that 

1. Quirky laughs make other people laugh

2. I learnt that in life I am writing my own story and no one else's. I must learn to Live my way and not through anyone else

3. Leading is GOOD. I've always had a love hate with leading. Not really a big fan but Kerry proved to me that leaders are shakers and changers. They infect and affect everyone around them young and old. I want to be a shaker and therefore I must be ready to lead. 

4. Being prepared isn't a bad thing. It's better to be prepared than unprepared. She didn't settle for mediocrity by giving the usual lame excuse but she set a standard! :)

5. It's good to be smart. Forget about the rumors of the successful dropouts. If you actually look at THIER stories you would understand that they were highly intelligent dropouts some even smarter than THIER profs. 

To me Kerry Washington made it cool to have a phd. And to be a graduate with honours. Not a lot of people inspire the youth in that way anymore. I want my last few yrs in UNI to be all about the smarts and maybe one day when I'm super smart I can change the world in my own little way like Kerry did. :)

EME ALBUM REVIEW!

 *Picks up mic*
  Okay I deserve every form of attack but I wanted to start my coming back with an EME album review. This is because I am a HUGE, if not the BIGGEST EME fan on the planet. I have listened to this album 6 times now, 5 times in a row yesterday and the last time, this morning. I would suggest that if you're looking for a particular comment to a song you scroll down, this post is REALLY long. I honestly tried to shorten it. In order to save my final judgement, lerrus begin: 

1) Baddest Boy – E.M.E feat WizKid, Skales & Banky W. - LOVE THIS SONG!. I refused to listen to the leaked version till the original version was released and I believe anyone who has listened to both will tell you the original is way better. Wizkid, is flawless, as usual.... I love the fact that he talks about his "haters" in a more comical way "Ogbeni wizzy, se kosi, you to dey form, kilo fa oshi" and I love the fact the he also adds a prayer " lodun tun tun e ma ko le mo le (this year, you will build houses)" I thought that was very remarkable *kept saying AMEN*. Skales, was just Skales being a boss and I loved it!. Banky was just the icing to the cake and he had some pretty deep punchlines "your girl spent the night at mine, make her breakfast". I thought he did a phenomenal job.

2)  Get Down Tonight - E.M.E feat Wizkid, Skales & Banky W. - This song just comes across as a typical party dance song. I won't lie, at the beginning of the song, I thought it was fine lady with lynxxx. I don't know it just never caught my attention until the third time i listened to the album. Not one of my favorite tracks, but it's still a hit... a slow one.


3)  Sun Mo Mi - E.M.E feat ShayDee, Skales & Banky W.- *sigh* I LOVE SHAYDEE!. Is it to early to start professing love? :$... He just reminds me of Wande Coal in sooo many ways. His vocals are on point and I'm honestly going to be watching out for him!. Skales nailed it! his lyrics are ALWAYS my favourites... I can't wait till he blows the way wizzy has!. Banky was on point in this song nothing 100% outstanding. This song is definitely on the top 10 for me, cos of shaydee's vocals.


4)  Hate (Part 1) – E.M.E feat BasketMouth - LOL! Linda's Blog is always the topic for horrible haters. Not my favourite hate though but Basketmouth did his thing!

5)  Roll It – E.M.E feat WizKid & Banky W. - FIREDANCER !!!!!!!!!! Oh Lawd! this was the FIRST SONG that stood out to me when I listened to this album the first time!. love the beat, WIZZY MURDERED IT!... not killed!. I honestly think this is one of the best songs, if not the best song on this album. BANKY KILLED IT!... His rap was amazing "she said she got boyfriend, Cool story" -- I chopped that one from afar!.

6) Find My Trouble – E.M.E feat Banky W., ShayDee & Skales - Another Hit!.. didn't hit me till the second time but I like this song!... Everyone killed it! "lepa toh ni cargo!".... nuff said.

7) Body – E.M.E feat WizKid - NOT IMPRESSED! I feel like something is missing in this song! Just a little "umph" . Its a song, but its not a good song! it feels like a passby song. The lyrics aren't even all that either.

8 ) Ko Mo Le – E.M.E feat Skales - THIS SONG IS A JAM, LIKE MUKULU!. love it!, Skales delivered! Its a party song too but it has the "umph"!.

9) Dance – E.M.E feat Banky W. & X.O Senavoe - "Oh girl you driving me wild!". This song is GOOOOD. Senavoe delivered! this is the first time I really listened to him so I was impressed. The beat for this song is really the reason why this song is that good, other than that, I am sure we can all agree that Banky likes girls that can dance and also has billions! (That's what he said!).

10) Don’t Delay Me – E.M.E feat Niyola - I was really excited to hear this girl on a track since i never really knew her but she DIDN'T impress me on this one. This song is ok but I wanted to LOVE her songs since she has so much experience and she's been in the industry for a long time now. Don't like this song, I PRAY it grows on me.

11) London Girl – E.M.E feat WizKid - *sigh* I AM MAD AT YOU! BECAUSE IT'S LONDON GIRLS COULDN'T IT BE NIGERIAN GIRLS OR CANADIAN GIRLS?????.  Other than that, its a HIT! Dammit! He impressed me AGAIN!. 

12) Hate (Part II) – E.M.E feat BasketMouth - I Like this HATE!. BasketMouth definitely impressed.

13) Dance For Me – E.M.E feat WizKid - This song is a good song! not GREAT just good!. to me sha!... I know for a fact that its going to grow on me so I couldn't be bothered!.. They've made a video for it already its just a matter of time.

14)  Follow Go House – E.M.E feat Skales, ShayDee & Banky W.- #SEGSHUA (#SEXUAL) ....Skales really made me begin to LOVE him on this song. He is amazing, and so are Banky and Shaydee. Sexual song.. not my kinda song but its a good song.

15) My Baby – E.M.E feat Skales - I LOVE THIS SONG!!...... SKALES! LETS GET MARRIED!... BABA GOD! PLS LET BANKY MAKE A VIDEO FOR THIS SONG!...*sigh* even if you don't listen to this album, do everything to listen to this song. 10/10 !

16) Only You – E.M.E feat Banky W., ShayDee & Rotimi - I'm really happy Rotimi is on this album, he is truly phenomenal, I wish he sang more naija songs. (http://rotimimusic.com/) . #SEGSHUA . This song is a GOOD song though!

17) Reppin’ EMEazzyyy – E.M.E feat Skales, WizKid & Banky W. - Love the beat of this song and I strongly believe it came from another song!. If anyone finds it, PLS comment Abeg!.  Its a good song all round.

18) Wetin I Want – E.M.E feat Skales & Niyola - An AMAZING song. This is where Niyola finally won my like not love ooh but I like her now... SKALES IS A MURDERER and he speaks yoruba like its his second language. Absolutely PHENOMENAL!. S to da K!!. The song is very fun related and its a good song, amazing beats and on point lyrics. No disappointments.

19) Change – E.M.E feat Banky W., Skales, WizKid, ShayDee & Niyola -  A song with a true message. It a good song. LOVE the message about Nigeria and how we can make a change.

20) See My Mama – E.M.E feat WizKid, Banky W. & ShayDee -  Another GOOD Song!... Amazing vocals and its a song I see myself dancing too. I feel like I got to meet Wizkid and Banky again, when they started. Although I feel like Shaydee blended and he didn't really shine for me in this song.

21) Hate (Part III) – E.M.E feat BasketMouth - Favorite Hate!!

22) Can’t Stop Us – E.M.E All Stars - PERFECT ENDING SONG !!!!!!!!!!!! DEFINITELY 10/10. EVERYONE KILLED IT!! 10/10.

My Top 5
1) My Baby - Skales truly SHINED!!
2) Roll it- Wizzy was ON POINT!
3) Can't Stop Us - FLAWLESS!
4) Sun Mo MI - ... *sigh*
5) Wetin I Want - Amazing Song!

Baddest boy would've been number 2/3 but it didn't qualify because I heard it before the album came out.

CONCLUSION: It is a good album but I feel like Shaydee blended alot in most of the songs so he didn't get to shine! and Niyola is good but I really want to see something better. SKALES IS THE BEST ARTIST ON THIS ALBUM! . He truly delivered and I can't wait until his album comes out!. It is an outstanding album and it has a mix of everything. Although, I feel like SOME of the songs where generic from some artists (party and sexual songs), I feel the album did its job of making us aware of the new comers in EME.


RATING: 8/10. AND I SAY, GET THE ALBUM FOR FREE, IF YOU CAN! (Sorry Banky, but I'm a cheap babe but I will pay to see you sha!)

Tharrisall

*sigh* *passes mic*

Update!

So.. I disappeared... for a while... because of school , and life in general..
I'm not promising much, mostly because I have no life lessons to talk about.. yet... but they'll come..
I'm done my first year... Wohooo! .... Yes, there is a lot to say about that... Lets hope I don't forget to write about it...
So maybe I do have life lessons :D
Sorry if I have any typos, etc.... my Microsoft don't work no more so I'm trying to figure out some kind of auto correct...
So that's pretty much it!
BTW, I'm looking for a job... anywhere around the world.. so if you can get me one preferably business related..  leave a comment and we'll see how it goes from there...
I'm an accounting and finance student sooo ... yeah.. thanks
I know I shouldn't be writing this but.... Time is going fast and I really want to do something good with my holiday... Any suggestions will be accepted too...

Ok, Tharrisall... x

Next week shall be better... I hope

Music Rant: Ice Prince; Juju

Aha!

Since my life is boring and there is nothing much to rant about... I had an epiphany moment 2 minutes ago to rant about peoples music / music videos that are stupid! \(^ ^)/
First up is ICEPRINCE;
So here is the video:

And thus comes my rant:

Everyone knows Ice Prince has the worst lyrics on earth! But as if that isn’t bad enough, the idiot decided to torture us with his horrible videos... AGAIN!!!!!!

You know what I can’t stand, chocolate citys’ LIES! EVERYMORAFUGING time, after an Ice Prince video is released, these idiots come up with this absolutely stupid excuse (report) that the video is a "leak". These dumbasses need to sit their ass down and accept their mistakes... YOU ALWAYS MAKE HORRIBLE VIDEOS!!!!!!!!! Whether it is MI or Ice Prince they all suck!!!!! The only thing that saves them is that most of their music is either party songs  (from Ice Prince) or really good lyrical songs (from MI). You know what, I’m not going to comment a lot about them... just wait till they release another stupid report, then I will come in full form.

Apparently this video was "leaked" but the truth is we are probably never going to see the original so we might as well stick to it. In plain words, THIS VIDEO IS HORRIBLE. I hoped, just for one second it was some kind of dream but apparently not.
Ice Prince, in this song you talk about going around the federation making money, Y U NO PAY CLEARANCE PETERS TO MAKE YOUR GODDAMN VIDEO!!!!!!!!!! Your solution is so easy it almost annoying that you can’t see it! Oleku video sucked, superstar was torture to watch, and this one, is freaking unbearable... you made me wish for one second that you fell down when you were on that tall building... HABA! Mr. Man, it is not that hard to make a good video.... considering your tacky lyrics you deserve to give your fans one thing to be happy about.... hen!, you think what I’m saying is evil and maybe I do sound like a hater but in all honesty I am not! I have your whole album and even with the horrible rhymes I listen to every single song almost every other week (HA!).
MORAL OF THE STORY: Ice Prince go and jump of that tall building and start getting common sense because e b like say you need am plenty!


Tharrisall!
 
So sorry that Valentine’s Day post just came up... I wrote it on the 17th I just forgot to publish it!

Valentine & Post Valentine Exprience

AHA!
OK! I'm done...
So I did say I wanted to do a post on Valentine’s Day but I didn’t
Because Valentine’s Day was like any other day for me...
I woke up late, went to class, came back home, watched movies, and slept.
Yep nothing special at all...
But after Valentine’s Day I got a P ^_^
If you don’t know what a P is I’ll try and explain... A P is someone that is attracted to you. You could like them or you could not and you might want to date them or not... it all depends on you...
So the good part is a guy likes me... I don’t know if that is good or not but ooh well
The sad part is that he is not the one I like... but it don’t matter.... life moves on at this point I think...
So yeah there is not much to say... I’m pretty boring slash hurt...
I’ve lost a lot this year.... I don’t know how on earth I’m ever going to recover...
This same today, all I could honestly think about was disappearing from the surface of this earth but I still don’t disappear...
God has a plan for me... but I hope he knows I cannot take any more pain... it'll probably kill me...

"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish he didn't trust me so much." 

-Mother Teresa

Tharrisall :)